My life started so very humble. I was that little farm girl. with a pair of cowboy boots from my Grandparents. Having to wear the same clothes a couple days because with seven people in the family there was just to much laundry. Left the farm for the city life with of course the CRAZY mother and her husband. grew up fast. faster then I should have. faster then I wanted too.
When you were sent to state hospitals like I was, (I was mentally ill according to my mother) I never had anything yet. My mother through everything away of mine. keeping no memories of me for me. so when I grew up I could not laugh at silly times, UUUGGG!!!laugh at silly times? what silly times I say? it makes me very sad. she through all my yearbooks away. all of my friends school pictures. why? she values nothing!!! nothing that has no dollar amount stuck to it. I feel enraged right now. she lacks any kind of kindness, moral value, or for that matter love!!!! No one really understands the Severe Pain my heart is in right now. I am so sensitive. I know if someone would push the wrong way I would fall over and stay down.
Today, as I see myself in that mirror I am still that farm girl who did make it once to the top but to stay there was and is way to complicated I cannot lean on you........
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