After realizing your once Romeo and Juliet relationship was never the way you thought it was. It was time to pack up and move on. but I still loved him for the silliest reasons. So I stayed, being physically, emotionally hurt on a daily bases takes a toll on your soul. You begin to forget who you are and think you need him to survive. No matter what is going on they make you believe no one wants you, you do not belong anywhere. your self worth has dwindled to nothing so you beg for any kind of attention. whether it be hurtful or not.
It has taken years, gone through many therapists, but now I have the right team, the best group of friends that I would trust my life with. and the Lord Jesus Christ. with all of this I mustarded enough guts to tell him I am leaving. at First he said fine go..... then it was are you really leaving? and now the anger has tripled because I am on the final count down of going. And then I am FREE!!! I was really afraid at first that I was going to fail but it is only because he has put this in my head. I am already a success. I have conquered abuse from him and I am walking away.... he will have to live with his demons of what he has done but I get to fly away...... I will however pray.. for him
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